I’m finding myself more and more excited every day as we await Parker’s arrival. Chelle and I were talking the other day about just how scary parenting is because of all the unknowns, DS or not. It’s scary not knowing if this baby will be as healthy as we hope or as good a sleeper was we hope (we REALLY need a good sleeper this time ). Ultimately, there is nothing we won’t be able to handle. If there is one thing I’ve learned as a parent, it’s that you get past even the toughest moment and look back on it as if it was no big deal. We are just getting past one of those things now. Lydia went the better part of two months without sleeping through the night or even much of the night. We were left with very few options to get her some much-needed rest and ultimately the both of us as parents went without a good night’s sleep for most of two months. That was killer, but now, just a few weeks removed, it’s nothing I even think was that tough now that I’m not in the moment.
The lesson I’m learning every day as a parent is to truly take things one day at a time. That’s as true for the good times as it is for the bad. I’d be devastated if I didn’t enjoy the little moments with Lydia that happen every day cuz I was worried about tomorrow or next month or next year. There are just so many wonderful things happening every single day with her that I am amazed by and cherish. I know that if we keep that attitude and perspective with Parker, we’ll have a great life, even if some tough stuff is sprinkled in there.
When we found out about Parker, we kept feeling this difficult sense of shock that our best laid life plans would never quite happen as we had dreamed. Well, good. I’m ok with that now. I think it’s better to not have it all figured out. I can’t control a lot of things, so why even bother. It’s all about not missing opportunities to grow, love and be loved, and to just be happy in the moment.
So, with that, I am very excited…almost to tears sometimes. It’s been surreal at times that we are having another baby at all and with this baby being “special”, I know we’re just gonna have so much to be happy about and thankful for. I drift into daydream a lot…that’s the artist side of me that I can’t control. I think about all of the things I am going to have in my life with Parker and it’s just cool. I want it all now. I want to go to ballgames, play in the yard, learn to ride a bike, go fishing (well, my dad has offered to take Parker fishing and I’ll stay home…I’m an “inside kid”) but you know what I mean. All of the stereotypical memory-making events are things I just can’t wait for. I’m mostly just looking forward to meeting him. What is he gonna be like? Will he be a blondie like his sister or will he have Chelle’s dark hair and skin? I just want to hold my little perfect son in my arms and feel him breathing. That will be enough to start with. We’ll all learn a lot about him and each other in the time ahead. In the time between now and his birth, I’ll just keep getting antsier and antsier in anticipation. It’s gonna be so great and I can’t wait.